Please don’t~
I want to give up. I want quit from my university. I want to run away from all of this. I can’t stand any longer. I want to be alone, with Allah. I’ve done so many sins. I can feel that I’m getting far from Allah. I’m so disappointed with myself. I had through this feeling before, and I can heal myself from it. But why now I can’t find the same way I’ve healed myself back then. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I want to give up.! I’m so sick for all of this problem. It’s hurt enough.
My dad always reminds me, don’t ever whining with all the thing that I’m doing because everyone experiences the same situation. There’s no point for us to says that we are are tired, because the result still the same. But for once in my lifetime, I could says that, I’m so freakin tired with myself. I hate myself. !! I need to heal myself.
I need to pull back myself together. Allah always be with me. I should feel grateful because I’m alive. A lot of people out there didn’t have what I have now. Please don’t says that you are sick with your life. Allah knows better than you, Atiqah. Be stronger! Yes! Allah is my strength. I live because of Allah. Thanks to Allah for giving me this kind of situation. I need to discover what are the thing that Allah wanted to show to me. I feel thankful and proud because I’m muslim. Islam had thought me a lot of things. I could commit to suicide;the easier way to get rid of this kind of problem I had now. But Islam had thought me that for whom we live, what are the purpose of life. yes. I’m proud that I’m a MUSLIM.
I love Allah. I love Muhammad. I love Islam. I love Sunnah. I love Quran Al-Karim. I must think positive. Everything happens for reason with a meaningful results. Stay strong! You can do it Atiqah! Yahh! I can do , I know I’m the best for myself. Takes everything as a lesson. InsyaAllah, Allah will guides you. =’]
